honestly , it’s gone bad

now there’s nothing left but time.

I’ll pretend you’re still here to tell me wrong from right, to teach and to nurture me; to fill me with your desires and your expectations. It’s bizarre being flushed down the drain of reality all of a sudden.
it’s all good. the only problem I can think of , which in fact isn’t a problem in the first place is the complete and total lack of “need-ing”.
after always being with someone it’s hard to learn to be by yourself . moreover it’s painful to see all your limits, all your foundations being crushed. in the end it isn’t half bad. you’ll learn that you can do it on your own and even though you wish for that conditioned love(having the perseverance of the unconditioned but the passion of a fling) you are now able to grow.
and grow I must.
it’s just a state of *utter pause*. oh well ’tis normal I guess.